Enjoying The Chaos

of life…with kids, school, and work

Me November 6, 2010


So, my name is Erin and I truly am enjoying the chaos of my life.  I am a mother, a daughter, a sister, an employee, a student and I am kind of a runner,a friend, a sort of wife, and a busy busy busy person.

I spent the majority of my life in ballet/tap/jazz shoes, tights and a leotard.  At a very young age, I watched beautiful ballerinas dance across the stage.  I strived very hard to be just like them.  Many years later, I realized that I would never be a ballerina but fell in love with tap and jazz.  At the age of 12 I was 5’8 and weighted about 100 lbs.  Due to all the dancing I did, I could eat what I wanted, how I wanted, and when I wanted.  This lasted through high school where I cheered and kept up that active lifestyle. 

 After high school I moved to the beach for the summer and packed on a few pounds..but quickly lost them when I came home in September.  After my first semester of college. I received the biggest life changing experience any 18 year old girl could ever have…I found out I was pregnant.  At that point I was 4 1/2 months pregnant.  How is that possible do you ask?  Due to being so physically active, I never had a normal period.  It was always late, if it showed up at all, and when it did..it lasted for about 1-2 days.  I was on birth control the first 4 1/2 months that I was pregnant.  Luckily, my little boy was healthy and happy.  I delivered a 8 lb 13 oz baby boy a year after graduating from high school. 

I was amazingly blessed with great parents who told me 1.  You will not get married because of this 2.  You will not drop out of school and 3.  We will help support you but we will not raise this baby for you.

This is Conner at 15 year old, a year ago.  He stands at 6’5″ tall and has the worlds fastest metabolism…this hasn’t been tested but I am sure of it.

Conner lives with his father these days:(  I miss him very much!

Fast forward a good 7 years (nothing mind blowing happened during these years..bad relationships…continued school…many jobs) I met this guy

This is P ditty (Patrick)…we met, moved in together, got married….

and then K was born….OMG…I am still to this day..totally in love with this little guy.  He is so smart and kind and I know that he will grow up to be such an amazing person.  I can remember laying bed with P ditty and just looking at him in amazement. 

K LOVES cars..and just started kindergarten this year.  He is loving school and making lots of new friends..oh and did I mention that he LOVES cars…he got it from his dittydaddy.

We celebrated K’s 2nd birthday, and four days later he got his most favorite present…

Lil B…yep.  He wouldn’t agree that it was his favorite present these days…and has asked many times if we can take her back. 

I had lots of complications with B’s birth and had been in the hospital for a month before she was born.  K knew that because she was here…Momma got to come home!!

Lil B is my princess.  After living in a house with boys galore…I needed some girl power.

Not every story has a happy ending…P ditty and I separated.  I took the kids and moved out.  I did everything in my power to be the best mother I could possibly be.  I went back to school…and busted my tail…

and graduated…finally with my AAS in Addictions Counseling.

This was a very proud moment.  I have finally found what I want to do when I grow up…I am currently in my first semester at UMBC working on my BA in Social Work with a minor in Gender and Women’s Studies. 

I also went back to work full-time in July.  Unfortunately, I am not working in my field.  I work for the company that I worked for before Lil B was born.  It is not my dream job, but it pays the bills and gives me time to study/read while at work.  I am not allowed to talk about my work due to “the social networking policy” that I signed…blah blah blah….

On to the positive…I am on a quest to a healthier life.  After having 3 children, living a chaotic life, and doing everything in my power to make sure my babies live happy, healthy lives…I have found that I am the one not so healthy.  I no longer exercise or eat the way I should.  I don’t like the numbers on the scale but I refuse to let that bother me to much. 

So, about 6 months ago, I started running.  I AM NOT A RUNNER!!  I still, after running 5 5ks, can not run a whole 3.1 miles.  I refuse to let that stop me!  I run with the most amzing women…TEAM MILF

That is Moms Into Life Fitness…

I stared reading blogs and am loving reading all of them.  I am trying to be a healthier person so that I can show my children what being healthy is about.  I don’t want my daughter dieting at the age of 11..or younger for that matter.  I want her to be active and eat well.  Another reason I choose to start this blog was because I want women to see that life gets everyone down.  It is our job as women, especially mothers, to be strong.  We can do whatever we set our sights on.  Not everything has been easy in the last few years.  Life gets me down..but life is what also gets me up. 

P Ditty is very much a part of mine and my children’s lives…he is around ALL THE TIME…and we like it that way.  He is a good dad…

All in all…I LOVE MY LIFE and I totally LOVE MY CHAOS!


9 Responses to “Me”

  1. Sue Says:

    Erin – Just came across your blog this morning. Sounds like you have a full plate! I am so impressed that you find time for fitness with your busy schedule. Love the name of your running team…lol

  2. Hi Erin! Thanks for commenting on my blog! I’m so excited to follow your blogging adventures!

  3. Debra Says:

    Hi Erin,

    People like you truly inspire me. I commend you on trying to do more for yourself despite your hectic schedule. That is something I am trying to work on myself. Intellectually I know if I am not happy and healthy how can I take care of everyone around me, but it is much harder to do. I am so used to taking care of everyone but myself. I wish you all the luck and keep up the great work! You deserve it!

  4. Sana Says:

    Your story is so awesome! You have a beautiful family! And we both go to UMBC- let’s have lunch!

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  6. thermacuts Says:

    What template do you use in your website

  7. Hi Erin! Loved reading about you! Your children are beautiful, and your story is inspiring!

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